I happen to be on the phone with the (now ex) boyfriend. After having spend the night with the guy or rather (now) lover.
We had sex twice, once with out a condom and once with. I don't know what I was thinking not making him put on a condom the first time and then on top of that allowing him to come inside of me. smh
He said he loved me. (not that that mattered by the way, it had no influence on me at all, i just wasn't thinking in general) I eventually replied the same. Earlier I told him he shouldn't. He said he didn't care. He'll only get his heart broken. by me. I don't want to break his heart, so I'll follow the trail ...
I feel as though I am a horrible person. I don't think i should feel that way though. I didn't ask him to fall in love with me, even though I knew he would. In a way it was inevitable.